I know its been awhile since I wrote. I have been busy, late night runs are the best. I sing out loud, singing with my eyes close, very relaxing. Nobody cares or judges me on how I look like while running.  The feeling of sweat coming down from my neck to my back. Sweat is good only when working out, other than that I hate it.  I have been working out, its good. Only I dont really get to eat the food that I love to eat. Especially living in the city doesnt help that much at all. FOOD EVERYWHERE!!!! I maintain myself, I would just start thinking of the positive things, the outcome of what I would look like if I loose all this extra weight on me. 

     Johns birthday is soon, this Saturday. I will be having his pregame surprise party at my house. Rented a limo so nobody has to drive for the rest of the night. Reserved spots for us, bottles and all. Were going all out!!! I cant wait to see his face that I actually did all this for him.
     Must go shopping the day before his birthday, but then I have to meet up with my new gay friend Fernando after.  Its going to be a really busy weekend with the planning and all. I know its going to be worth it. I hope he loves it, but then again I really don't want to expect things to happen the way it should happen. Sometimes things happen when you least expect it.  

     So the thing is, I would never learn my lesson. So all the guys that I was actually seeing is gone I think. Besides;
Omar Z. -  which I always say that I would stop talking to him, which never happened.
Omar C. -  he's just really good at it and he has a really good size penis.

New edition:
Alvaro - so far no home runs yet. I don't want to say it would never happen between us because that what I said when me and Omar C. were messing around.  However, hes good at keeping me company. 
Lee - Shes my lesbian fuck.

well lets say two weeks. I have been busy. Went to Cabo along with my brother, Alex, Omar C. and Vicky. It was cool until we got there and totally ruined it, well for my brother's friends since they were all underage. I met this girl Nicole, i flirted and i conquered. She was hot. now I'm not trying to go gaga for her. we could be good friends but well see. She reminds me of Audry Hepburn.

Went on a reunion/date with Salma. I love her even though she's like Omar Z. sister .  Shes like a sister to me as well. We had fun and of course like usual she bought me to place that i have never been. Went to this place in the city.  we had brunch at a rooftop restaurant called HK. we had unlimited mimosa and champagne. after that we end up going to a bar which they had a $4 draft beer. That lured us in there. we end up getting drunk. It was fun. Its always fun with her, that's why i love her. I don't mind if Omar Z. got married or something, I will always hang out with her no matter what, hopefully her feelings are the same as mine. I know it is. 

Went to Cape May with the family for a week, along with Carol, Alex and Jon. It was fun. The beach was peaceful and very beautiful. I would live there for summer vacation. I love New York way too much I cant leave this place. For some reason I never wanted to leave that place or whenever i go on vacation and its time for me to head home. I never wanted to come back. Who doesn't??

I gained about 5 pds back. Grrrrrrr..... cant seem to get rid of this extra weight. I love food what the hell. But i have to loose it all. Its for the my good and also of course i want to look sexy again.

I have been good, meaning with the boys. I havent cheat on jon for awhile now, which is good.  But we had like a huge fight awhile ago. It was to a point where he was packing his shit to go. but luckily he didnt and we talked about it. hmmmm let me see, my guy pile??
Javi -  havent spoke to him. hes dead to me.
Alex - hes dead to me too. major turn off when we went on vacation with him. His a lazy fat fuck who
          cant even clean after himself. I cant live with a person like that, or be with a person like that . our cape may
          vacation opened my eyes to what it could been if me and alex happened. thank god it didnt.
Omar Z. - He texted me before saying that i havent texted him. Im trying to ignore him. His a liar and will never
                 change. Hes a cheater and will never change.
Omar C. - OK remember when i said i will never fuck him. I did. But that was it. enough said.
Dennis - we talked like usual, then not talk again. we see each other then not see again. I hanged out with him
              before. mind you we didnt fuck!! and we didnt end up in his house smoking our life away and maybe
              reminiscing how awesome it was 2 - 4 years ago when i first met him.  I dont know whats our future.
             For now hes been the "best-friend" i ever had that knew me for years. I dont think i see him as my
             Husband(we never know). I see him and I will always be talking and hooking up. thats all for now i
              guess. Hes still young and and that age guys want to go around even if they said they dont.

anyway, we played  manhunt awhile ago along with my friends and my brothers friends. I was sleeping until danny hit me up to pick up his guitar. We were just chillan outside talking until i saw Carol walking towards the house. I was wondering where she was coming from until she told me what they were doing. It was 330 in the morning. Now, Today is my brothers birthday. i want to look smoking hot. I need to get my extensions so i could use them tonight or whenever. well, I think its time for sleep. even though its like 6 in the morning. Oh how i used to come home for the city this late. I miss the old days.

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